19.5.12
too big a heart
when people need you, they call you. they talk to you, they pour out their troubles, they ask for things.
when people don't, you become a liability in their lives. you talk too much, you trouble them, you make them wait.
God, i'm tired of having too big a heart. i can't stay angry at a person for more that 5 minutes. i get over it too fast. and people take it for granted, they will never know how i really feel. only You do.
can You please give me less of a big heart? i'm tired of trying to read minds and not offend people. i'm tired of living for others. i want to just up and leave. i want to live for myself.
keep my heart upon Your altar.
Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my feet don't let me falter.
