22.12.11
제 혼란스러운 마음이..
maybe i didn't do it because i'm a girl, or because i was lazy, or because i was worried about the impending rain, or because it was unconventional, or because i didn't want to make it a regular occurrence, or because i was expecting something more, or because i just didn't get the hint (내 동생 just thinks i'm a total 바보 actually).
whatever it was, i'm freaking confused by my own actions, and by the (probable) utter lack of use of brain in this whole thing. was it right, was it wrong.. it was more a "뭐야..", now that i think about it.
i'm sorry! i just wasn't thinking when you asked ): i think your disappointment is going to haunt me for a while.
and i think i'm going to pay dearly for this, as i wallow in my sad jay chou songs.
keep my heart upon Your altar.
Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my feet don't let me falter.
