19.6.08
emo.
You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident
On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind
But even at our swiftest speed we couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside.
And I have learned that even landlocked lovers yearn for the sea like navy men
Cause now we say goodnight from our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed
listening to death cab 1. puts you to sleep, and 2. makes you emo to some point haha. can't describe it, but it turns you emo. and it makes you fall asleep and miss your bus stop by just a bit more than just a marginal bit.
anyhow, mock camp's just over, and i thoroughly had tons of fun haha. oooohh, fun fun for freshies (note: alliteration)! haha hilarious really, some moments haha. from wardrobe comments (glow in the dark luminous green dry fit shirts; easy to spot in the dark orange crocs) to being obsessive gamblers (ASSHOLE taiti sigh; CONFUSED bridge) to eating nonstop (TOWHUAY; PRATA) haha... but if i were to describe it here (and so i did, to a certain extent), it'd just lose its BAM. so i shan't be BAMBAMING around about it haha. but it's gonna be super fun haha.
on the other hand, work has been traveling down the road along the lines of the law of diminishing marginal returns, but at least i have a job and that dreaded 80 hours off my head. i guess compared to the kindie, this job's terrible haha. but it's admin, what else.
and yet amongst it all, i must learn to fight it off. this terrifying chase. i know not how to handle it, i've never really had it. it scares me so, not just the mere subject of it, but of the subject involved in the subject. i want to ignore it, but i think if i do, i'll end up hurting someone, so i must learn.
talk about the random burst of cryptic random haha. it's been a while since i've done it. i think i need to start writing in the little physical book soon, so that all the cryptic rubbish can go in there and not befuddle anyone heheh.
okay, bed. it's another long day at work. and i feel like eating prawn mee / duck noodles (L!X is so gonna be proud of me haha). teehee :D
keep my heart upon Your altar.
Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my feet don't let me falter.
