8.8.07 unassuming acceptance.

i remember in my last year of primary school, being the scared, insecure, just-turned-twelve year end baby, i was terrified of leaving the familiar grounds of heartland west coast, where i had learnt to sneak around after school while telling my mum i'll be home soon (just for 50cent ice cream at macs, where was i going man) and where i was proudly prefect (okay okay, laugh). upon learning about the naive fear, andrew (haha i doubt you'll read this) gave some advice, that the friends you meet in secondary school and college often last way lot longer than your dear primary mates.

i don't know if that's true, i can't exactly say the friends i made during my secondary school years lasted that long, with everyone in different jc's. but i daresay my jc friends have stuck and i think will stick for quite a long time. from inspiring eggplant jewelery for brocolli and meeting up with small dave, to making fun of elf constantly and knowing my purple buddy's deepest darkest library moments.

and as i go on into uni, it's a wonder how new friends just gel so quickly together. it's the constant thought that it's because of so-and-so who knows so-and-so, that's why it's easier to become friends, get to know each other faster. but looking at what i've been going through for the past 3 weeks close to a month, it's hardly that constant thought any more.

starting out with the same insecurities and reservations that i had over secondary school and jc, i embarked on the making-new-friends-all-over-again journey (cheesy as it sounds) which i'd dreaded since matriculation day (believe it or not, yes). yet i think it was a lot easier opening up and trusting new people with your weaknesses, your stupidity (brainteasers =/), your curfews and limits, your beliefs this time round. it's just, okay, you don't club or drink, you self-impose or are given curfews, you cannot figure out where the whole brainteaser or the dirty joke is going, but that's okay.

there's just this unassuming acceptance that i have yet to see in a long time in the obvious. everyone's cool, everyone's hot, everyone's pretty, everyone's in a circle playing superheroes haha. i was particularly amazed at how fast everything moved. first day, and there's already a contact list being made (kudos to keetoh, alliteration unintended). first day at camp, and yuwen's brainteaser queen. first day for everyone, and we're all doing stupid things already (note: night games with stupid poses). first outing, and we've already established when we should have our future outings (tuesday, because it's half-price waffle day, and ladies night at minds).

i think, i've closed in on myself a little too much, or just kept to the regular few i'm comfortable with. maybe it's the limits i'm set, but i think i have a lot to learn and let go.

thanks you all (: it must be the team building spirit coupled with the madness (:

on the other hand, i think i'm going absolutely mad on facebook with the gadget group haha. i think i really am damn bored. but thankful and blessed (: like ken lim says, it's the little things that really matter haha

Give me strength to cross the water,
keep my heart upon Your altar.
Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my feet don't let me falter.