6.8.07
thou shalt not do things in short temper.
i think i enjoyed my 2 years of being ultimate saikang warrior aka secretary for the band. i think it was the people and the appreciation shown by these same people who made it berable, regardless of late submissions and hours of minutes.
currently, i don't think being saikang warrior aka not secretary is much fun anymore, especially when you are somehow supposed to do everything, from being a churn-out-games-like-free machine, to recruiting, to writing out instructions word for word (with all my gp prowess, i'm actually finding this hard to do), et cetra, et cetra, et cetra (oh man i love quoting from the king and i), even though you have a committee (who's involved in many other things as well).
having too much saf-charged testerone in the same room doesn't help things much, it just turns a lot of people very mcp-ish, which irritates me to the very end (my language is quite civil here), since too many people talking results in little listening and some people eventually choosing to just zip.
all this setting down the prejudice for typing minutes, it is not good for the health.
and while you deal with that, you deal with being sad with being torn between what you believe and what you want. 1 Peter 1:7, Matthew 6:33 gives a clear answer for conflicts of interest that involve God and a certain other factor.
while you want them to understand, you can't help but feel a little sigh and that you're a rigid poker face when that's not what you really are, you're just doing what you think is right.
why the world is so hard to understand / make to understand, i will never know. in the meantime, i'll hold onto the s4g lesson from last week, that's some encouragement.
short paragraph spurts that generally last as long as a very long sentence. this was bad to begin with, hungry, tired, short. i think i haven't had a proper rant in a long time.
ugh, how b****y, now that's no good. at least there's packing and throwing things out to look forward to tomorrow, and then there's tuesday. what positivity i posess haha. so much so, i actually think my temper, like my paragraphs, has lengthened haha.
i shall go to bed and think about elf and monkling, and all the bad jokes we share haha, that always cheers me up for some apparent reason.
why, i feel all better already (: look what an impact you've made haha (:
keep my heart upon Your altar.
Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my feet don't let me falter.
