5.6.07 renewed trust

"i can't believe it you're far overdue for that"

"haha far overdue for what?"

"forgetting about ____"

"after going back so much haha nerve wrecking i say"

"psssh haha you just should have gone altogether"

sometimes i wonder if lee (how influential! i even remember what you said haha) was right after all. whether it is really my burden to bear unconsciously as well. some people think i'm just plain mad, others think it's a devotion uncomprehendable, most think it's a strange (and perhaps worrying) combination of both. i erm don't know what it is, second nature that's been passed on through the generations, especially so in all the seniors above me.

nope. not now, i think, i think... they need all the support they can get. i think, i think... but do they really want what i can give? haha it's like i'm doing a changyao here, first make a statement then immediately proceed to contradict myself hurhur.

i think i've made quite a few bad decisions since i could legally watch nc-16 movies (something which i've yet to do, ironically), but they've always turned out alright. so i think, i think... i'll just pray doubly hard and hopefully ask for the right things, i.e. God's will.

on the other hand, i finally went to davy jones' locker today. i'm telling you, morning shows are so empty, you could play catching in the theatre, or switch seats every time there's a scene change. not a bad movie, i wasn't disappointed at least. and i cannot wait for the soundtrack hurhur. just the several double-crossings here and there drove my brain peanuts, i say. not helpful that i played baroque for an hour straight after getting home, my head feels like tau hui now, to pull a leaf from doc lee's book, sigh.

alright, i'm done here. it's been a rather strange day today i say.

savvy?

Give me strength to cross the water,
keep my heart upon Your altar.
Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my feet don't let me falter.